I’m writing this in hopes that it will help clear my mind and because I need to do something. I need to act, more than I have. I just spent some time sobbing on my bathroom floor as frustration and a mess of other emotions overwhelmed me. I just listened to Elder Oaks’ talk on where God wants me to stand on the topic of Gay Marriage. And I believe all that he said. I truly do. I have already thought through and lived with the bulk of his statements. I am a gay man, married to a woman, with children of my own. I have seen the blessings of being married to a woman and I will affirm the importance of it to anyone who asks with no proof other than what I have experienced in my own life. But it is still a challenge, sometimes a daily challenge to wade through the complexities of living as a man who is sexually attracted to men instead of women. At times I feel as if I am single handedly sparing with generations of social stigmas a...
Edited and updated. I've always tried to portray a very positive attitude when writing about my husband being SSA. For the most part that is very accurate. There are hard things too. The longer we are it though the more I realize that all marriages are just as hard. We all have trials that we go through to make us stronger and ours is no different. I think as long as a SSA person has learned to have healthy relationships with their same gender and they keep strong in their marriage then it is no different than being in a “normal” marriage which also will always have its issues too. As Will has grown emotionally he has taken more notice of people and their reactions/actions to people around them and now understands them better too. He has noticed that some guys he is around, really like being around girls. Yes, obviously, but let me explain more. He and a good straight guy friend, who both enjoy each other’s company, will be talking alone. A gal wil...
I wrote this post two weeks ago, as you will see at the bottom. I’m actually glad I didn’t post before as it gave me two weeks to put everything in a better perspective. Will has always been gay or attracted to men. Since he was 8, he knew he was different. Then, I assume, sometime a few years later he realized he was SSA (Same Sex Attracted). He had a goal in mind though; he was going to go on a mission, he was going to get married, he was going to have a family, and he was NOT going to be gay. Though that did get him where he wanted to be, and we think that the goal to not be gay was a good thing for our journey, the time comes when you have to be honest with yourself or you might explode! :) When Josh Weed came out (you can read our story about that here ) it allowed Will to be OK with being gay. That means he isn’t squashing those feeling anymore. And if he isn’t squashing those feelings, that means he is having them. ...
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