Finding Strength of Will

See "On Affection, Part 1". It's been about a year since I wrote this. It's been a bit. Took a break for a few minutes. Thoughts are coming again now. In reflection, what I have written here so far was not at all what I was expecting.  I was expecting to discourse on the complexity of attraction and the need for affection, and instead I found my answers in a surprising way.  I have been pondering about the ways in which people of the world seek for sexual fulfillment and gratification.  The ways are many and diverse, each bringing pleasure in its way, but very few resulting in real satisfaction.  And as our physical mind seeks pleasure, indeed it is programmed to do so, it is simple and easy to believe that in some way it is possible to be satisfied solely from pleasure. But most of these methods are almost entirely selfish and one-sided.  It is impossible to ever feel completely gratified and fulfilled when our primary motivation is to fulfill our...

I originally wrote this early October, 2012.  It's now eight months later.  I feel like I have slowed down and stabilized but that has brought it's own challenges.  More on that later. So the complications of affection and intimacy have been weighing on my mind this week.  I feel that I’m confused about what is right and I am hoping that writing it down will help.  As I’ve talked to Wrylon about some of it, she answers in such a matter of fact way that I am envious of the clarity that has been gifted to her.  However I must admit that I enjoy the complexities and facets of life.  She sees the diamond and that it is beautiful, I look at each cut and facet and how the reflections play off each other, dividing the light and creating rainbows. I'm not sure what I wanted to say but suddenly my thoughts are clouded.  Clarity is replaced with a fog.  I want to push on, to try and to pursue this line of thought, to chase the thought that has just...

Today I had a new thought, a new realization. Our family has been given a wonderful gift, an incredible gift. The gift of the man of the house, the father and husband, being SSA.  Being SSA has many challenges and complications but at the same time parts of those, along with other things that go along with SSA, are gifts. Will is learning how valuable and important touch is. As a society we have decided that men touching or being physically close is "gay". So men veer away for touching much at all. We have "man hugs". Many other cultures don't share this. SSA men NEED good healthy touch. As they get this good healthy touch their SSA attractions diminish. They don't go away. They will always think guys are cute, but so do I, so I don't see that as an issue. As these SSA men learn what they need and about healthy touch, they will in turn be able to share it with others. Our children will have been raised learning the healthy touch isn't "gay...