So, I’ve decided to start a blog.  Yikes!  I am defining it as a place for me to document my journey.  I will not limit it exclusively to SSA/Gay but I think that will be a predominant focus. There are many of us that are struggling or are confused.  I have been there, and still often am. I cannot do this journey alone. I tried that for too long and I will not go back. We are our brother's keepers.

I am a gay member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I am happily married to a woman. Call me bi if you like, but you'll have to take my word for it that the needle really only points in one direction. My wife will confirm that. Yet a mixed orientation marriage works very well for us. We are intimate friends in a way that I cannot even comprehend.

I had lived in denial for most of my life. I was introverted, and shy. I hated meeting new people and avoided drawing attention to myself. My second greatest fear was that I would end up gay. When I outed myself to myself a few months back, my life changed dramatically.  I transformed into a new person.  I began to long for connections with my brothers and sisters.  I needed it and I knew they did, too.  I now regularly strike up conversations with random people and take it as a personal challenge to be their friend by the time we part ways.  My wife says I am not the man she married, or even the same man I was three months ago--which she highly approves of.

I tried starting a blog a while back, even made up a page, but didn’t feel right about it.  Thought at the time that I wasn’t supposed to do it at all.  Today, while making a journal entry, the thought came: “It’s time to start a blog.”  I need to share.

So here I am.

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